Normally Im okay. Normally I dont think about these things. But today Im not. These past few months have been so positive, so many great things have happened to me. Life has just been great, but today Im just feeling choked up inside. And I just want to get everything off my mind. I’m trying to decide if I should say the things I want to say to the people I want to say them too. I dont know what to do, all I know is, If I want to continue on this happy and positive outlook on life I cant keep these things that are coming to the surface today inside. I dont wanna go back to feeling like Im nothing to anyone, like Im not good enough. Like I cant achieve what I want to achieve. I will not go back to that. So Im gonna get it all off my chest, right here, right now.
Dear Horn Dog who I will always have feelings for,
I’ve been thinking about you lately. I thought that I was over you, and our past. But I dont think I ever truly will be over you and what we had, well what I thought we had. You’ve apologized many times and I accept and truly appreciate your apologies. I just want you to know that you are the reason that I have been so positive and happy lately. I dont know if you meant what you said when you said I sounded more confident and like a totally different person than I was a year ago, but it was what I needed to hear. And hanging out with you that day, when I was completely care and worry free was the most awesome feeling ever, and I cant thank you enough for helping me realize. Who knows where I would be right now, certainly not where I am today. I just wish you could always be there for me like that, not just when you want something from me. Just be my friend, my genuine friend. You keep saying that’s what you want, but of course a few days later we go back to being strangers. I hate that.
Dear Past Love,
I have a confession to make. I was that girl on Ask.fm asking you to guess who I was by giving you all these hints about our past, you still couldnt guess who I was, which was kind of a downer for me, because those were the things that, to me, defined our relationship those years ago. I’ve just been thinkin about how happy I was with you! Everything was happy, always, things didnt even end badly, we just became to busy for each other and we were both understanding of that. Now that we are a little older, and time is more in our own hands than our parents, and we are more mature then we were a few years ago maybe we can try things again? I’ve been looking for the connection I had with you and just havent been able to find it, and maybe that’s been my mistake in my other relationships, but honestly none of them have come close to what we had. Maybe we could reconnect and see what fate has in store for us beyond that..?
I still think youre a DISGUSTING human being, but I do apologize for my childishness towards the end. I mean we were both acting like middle schoolers and I wish things would have ended differently, but before all that I truly was the happiest i had been in a long time. We had a lot of fun and you were so easy to talk to. I learned alot of things I didnt know about you, and sometimes I wonder how you are doing with all of that. I cant help it Im an extremely caring person, one of my weaknesses. I hope things with your Mom are getting better. I hope you get to go see her this summer. Even tho I will NEVER touch you again because you are probably infected from all those fat nasty rachet hoes you been fuckin and sucking. Maybe we can be cordial to each other now.
Wow, Im feeling alot better now. Back to Homework. Thanks Tumblr, I can always count on you.